SWEET AZURE

First I would like to say Happy Birthday to my nephew Brian James Yarn who just turned 9 today. Brian has always been so cute, loving and very smart. I love you Brian.

Today as you all know, my sister in-law Azure has been with Heavenly Father for 2 years now, WOW is she LUCKY. I would LOVE to see Azure again but I know it will be a while before I do. Brandon and I were at Mike and Brandi's last night and I went to get some water out of the fridge and I saw a flashback of one of Azures last weeks on earth. Their fridge is really cool, it tells you how much water is being dispensed in ounces. Well anyways, Brandon, Brian, Azure and Mike decided they were going to have a water drinking contest to see who could drink more and after they were done they were all throwing up, they were so sick. That was in Setember of 2007 when we were helping Mike and Brandi move in. I know its a weird memory but it is a good one. Brandon says he remembers the day before Azure passed away when they were at the Home Center, Azure was chasing Brandon around the parking lot with little Eric in her arms because Brandon said to Brian,'' Oh NO!!! our wife is here, RUN.'' Brandon said it was so funny. I have so many memories of Azure as we all do. I remember seeing Azure and Baby Eric at the Heber Country Store getting a Dr Peper 3 days before Azure passed and I was playing with Eric, Azure was telling me that she wished I was having the girl I had always wanted but it was ok because for some reason Heavenly Father wanted me to have a little boy. Azure always looked at things in such a positive way and she was always so inspirational. Azure always had a way of calming me down when I hated everyone. I love Azure. I remember the drive to Flagstaff with Mike, Brandi, Brandon and Jackie and we were all talking and joking like it was no big deal and Azure was going to be fine, we said,' Great, leave it up to Azure, now were all going to have to take turns taking care of her and Eric.'' It wasn't a bad thing, I think we were just trying to calm our nerves and think positive like Azure always told us to do. I remember Brandon talking to Brian saying that Eric was fine and was getting ready to be released from the hosital and Brandon asked Brian why Azure was deverted to Winslow hospital, We all knew it was bad when Brandon went numb and dropped the phone and started crying. Brian had told Brandon that they tried everything they could to keep her alive but they could no longer try. At that very moment we were all shocked, numb, sad and wondering why would Heavenly Father want to take Her from us, her baby and most of all her husband. We were all really heart broken but it didn't kick in until we made it to the hosital and the nightmare became a reality. We would all give anything to have Azure back with us even if it meant taking care of her for a while, but at least we have her. I know Azure is in a better place and that she is watching over us trying to keep us safe. I can't wait until I get to see her again, see her beautiful big smile, her long hair and her porclin skin. Im happy that we have the memories of Azure, that is better then not having her at all. We love you Azure. You will ALWAYS be missed but NEVER forgotten.

FAMILY

I love my husband, he is the best. On October 5th Brandon took me out to dinner at Licanos. We had a sitter for the kids but we felt that it has been a while since we have been out as a family so, we took the kids. Brandon and I have realized that OUR LOVE is worth fighting for and we don't want to ever take any days together for granted . The night Brandon took the kids and I out he was actually in the Valley meeting with his boss in the day time, and on his way home he stopped and got me a gift. Later that evening we went to ShowLow and ate dinner at Licanos, it was so yummy, after we ate we went to Walmart because it was too late to go see a movie. We got the boys each a pair of pants and some little house hold items. The biggest item that was purchasd that evening was a Wedding Ring for Brandon, he looks nice with a ring on his finger. I love my Family so much and I hate that the short term seperation happened but you can't take but what is done, but in the time we were apart it was totally a learning experience. Heavenly Father has a plan and appearently his plan for us was for us to have some time apart. We have both learned so much and now we can move on with what we have learned and apply it to make our family better, healthier and stronger.

Life was Crazy

Well life has been crazy, hectec, scary, deressing, you name it, it has been. Brandon and I have been together almost 9 years this coming March 3rd, we have been married almost 8 years this December 8th. Brandon and I had alot of problems in our marriage recently and we seperated because of it. Were not perfect and we are both at fault for what happened. We have realized that we do love each other and that this relationship is worth fighting for we were just to blind and scared and hurt to see that and to except it. Brandon and I are talking and working things out because we truly love each other and want a life together as husband and wife. I am so happy and blessed to be back with my other half. Brandon has found Heavenly Father and wants to except him into his life, Brandon has a pretty strong testimony at this point that put me to my knees. Brandon says he has been prayin alot the past few days and he loves the feeling of the spirit and the strenght he gains when he does pray and I am so proud of him. I thought it was so cute and I started balling when he asked me if I would go to church with him. I am so blessed to have Brandon and my 3 wonderful little boys back in my life. I LOVE YOU BABE!!!

Whats up with the bad Heart's

So, to start this update out, when Casey was 1 we had to take him to a heart specialist in Flagstaff and he was diagnosed with a hole in the heart between the two upper chambers. When your born, you are born with 2 upper chambers and 2 lower chambers. Casey has all 4 chambers but the 2 upper has an extra opening and usually this hole that Casey has is supposed to close its self by the time he was 4. The hole is where the chamber doesn't shut all the way allowing more blood than normal and faster than normal to travel to the heart. The doctor described it as a flap that moves back and forth allowing the blood to flow in and out. This defect is known as atrial septal defect (ASD). The condition is present from birth (congenital). Smaller atrial septal defects may close on their own during infancy or early childhood.

Large and long-standing atrial septal defects can damage your heart and lungs. An adult who has had an undetected atrial septal defect for decades may have a shortened life span from heart failure or high blood pressure in the lungs. Surgery is usually necessary to repair atrial septal defects to prevent complications.

Casey's defect was the smaller ASD and is not supposed to be too dangerous. I took Casey to the doctors a couple weeks ago and the doctor could still hear that the hole is infact still there and it shouldn't be. The Doc said no need to worry but he should still be paid close attention to. Heart problems run very highly on my dads side of the family, and only seems to affect the males. When you listen to Casey's heart you can hear the extra blood flowing, it is really cool to listen to, it sounds like an extra beat. Jared, my 4 year old was diagnosed with an abnormal heart rythem at 2 days old, he was actually still in the hispital. His bpm was only 77 which was not too much higher than my bpm, as all us moms know, new borns heart beats are supposed to be in the 100's for the first couple of years. Jared also went to the doctors when I took Casey and he still has the abnormal heart rythem and it is still only like 75 beats per minute. Jared will out grow this, but not untill he is an adult. This abnormality is not dangerous at all as long as it stays where it is and does not lower. Anthany, my 19 month old, so far does not have any heart problems like his brothers and the likley hood of him forming any now are very slim. All I have to say is thanks to the Dieterich's genitic heart problems that my 2 older boys have inherited...lol

What a CRAZY life

Where do I even begin? My mom, the strongest person I know has had many problem with her breast for the past 3 years. My mother is supposed to get mamograms done every 6 months do to the complications she has had. Every time she gets one done it always comes back with some kind of mass, Dr Greco, her doctor was always able to tell the same day it was done that there was nothing to be worried about, they were just non cancerious tissue. 1 year ago my mom had a bio done just to play safe and everything came back fine, the doc's decided she could wait 8 months in stead of 6 months for her next mamogram. My mom went in earlier this week to get another one done and everything did not come back fine. My moms mass was back and much larger, the doctors have reason to believe that it is cancer. ( Dr. Greco says it is suspecious) SO, my mom is going in for surgry on August 12th to take samples of this mass that they seem to beleve could be cancer. The doctors say not to worry yet because it could turn out to be nothing. The good thing about this unfortunate event is that if it is cancer then they caught it early. Please, Please, Please keep my mom in your prayers, I will update you all as soon as I am updated... Thanks

What a Scary Day

Today was a VERY bad day. It started with a friend telling us we owe a lot of money for a fine from when we were in Texas, the city of Killeen SUCKS. I started cleaning the house, waiting for my new phone to arrive I had to stay home so, after I cleaned I sat down to do my homework when I got a call from Brandon who was on his way home from Showlow with Aaron Blair. Brandon was in Pinedale when he and Aaron recieved a call from Kay Supply in Taylor saying the trim they needed was there so, they just turned down the dirt road and headed to Taylor. 4 miles up the road was a big dump truck speeding down the dirt washboard road, Brandon said he had to been going 60 miles an hour because all the dump truck left was a cloud of dust. Brandon and Aaron were laughing and saying they thought he was going to reck and then all the sudden Brandon heard a loud pop, swerved off the road and that is all he remembers. Brandon work up a few seconds later and his truck was in a tree. Appearently the tire on his truck blew out and for some reason Brandon blacked out. Brandon and Aaron did have their seat belts on how ever Brandon was transported to Summit Healthcare Regional Medical Center for back and neck pain, Aaron was also transported because he hit his head hard on the windsheild. The x-rays were done and Aaron only had deep bruising and will be very sore for a while, Brandon tore the muscle and tissue in his chest and back and will also be sore for a while. Today was very scary and I am so happy now that we are home. We did have full coverage so everything will be taken care of.

The craziest night, and I was sober...

Im sorry for all you who don't want to hear this but this blog is also like my diary and what I am about to say needs to come out or I won't be able to sleep. This is very random but thats ok because I have had a few family members tell me that I am very random at times... Like I said, Im sorry for the weird post.

I have had such a great night and it all started out when I came down to the valley to bring my grandma home. I decided to stay the night and visit with some family and at about midnight we put in a movie, it was me and my 13 year old cousin Trista and her 4 year old brother Joey and my boys Casey and Jared. Well I haven't been feeling good so I fell asleep soon after the movie started. At about 1:30am Trista woke me up with a damn ice cube and was freaking out because some one hacked into her myspace with a fake myspace and was posting videos of her. I got up to go look and before I could she had erased all the evidence, hmmm. I call bull crap. So as were watching the movie in the living room she see' s a red light in the back yard and starts to freak out because she thinks its the myspace hacker video taping her. I start freaking out because im a scardy cat and we started waking up the kids to go up stairs with everyone else. I was turning off the tv and dvd player and she is still freaking out, I looked at Trista and she was laughing so hard by the way we were freaking out that she starts to pee her pants. As we head up the stairs we notice that the red light is the freaking reflection off the coffee pot. WOW!!! We freaked for nothing. As I am writing all of this my cousin is about to throw up because of my burps, they taste like ass and appearently they smell like it too, Stupid throw up burps. Did I mention I don't feel too good? WOW!!! My 7 year old just asked me if when Im in the bath tub if I have ever laughed so hard that I farted, kids say the darndest thing. So my night has been very interesting and i am very tired now as I was at 1:30 in the morning when I was sleeping just fine untill all of this stupid crap. Good night.