SWEET AZURE

First I would like to say Happy Birthday to my nephew Brian James Yarn who just turned 9 today. Brian has always been so cute, loving and very smart. I love you Brian.

Today as you all know, my sister in-law Azure has been with Heavenly Father for 2 years now, WOW is she LUCKY. I would LOVE to see Azure again but I know it will be a while before I do. Brandon and I were at Mike and Brandi's last night and I went to get some water out of the fridge and I saw a flashback of one of Azures last weeks on earth. Their fridge is really cool, it tells you how much water is being dispensed in ounces. Well anyways, Brandon, Brian, Azure and Mike decided they were going to have a water drinking contest to see who could drink more and after they were done they were all throwing up, they were so sick. That was in Setember of 2007 when we were helping Mike and Brandi move in. I know its a weird memory but it is a good one. Brandon says he remembers the day before Azure passed away when they were at the Home Center, Azure was chasing Brandon around the parking lot with little Eric in her arms because Brandon said to Brian,'' Oh NO!!! our wife is here, RUN.'' Brandon said it was so funny. I have so many memories of Azure as we all do. I remember seeing Azure and Baby Eric at the Heber Country Store getting a Dr Peper 3 days before Azure passed and I was playing with Eric, Azure was telling me that she wished I was having the girl I had always wanted but it was ok because for some reason Heavenly Father wanted me to have a little boy. Azure always looked at things in such a positive way and she was always so inspirational. Azure always had a way of calming me down when I hated everyone. I love Azure. I remember the drive to Flagstaff with Mike, Brandi, Brandon and Jackie and we were all talking and joking like it was no big deal and Azure was going to be fine, we said,' Great, leave it up to Azure, now were all going to have to take turns taking care of her and Eric.'' It wasn't a bad thing, I think we were just trying to calm our nerves and think positive like Azure always told us to do. I remember Brandon talking to Brian saying that Eric was fine and was getting ready to be released from the hosital and Brandon asked Brian why Azure was deverted to Winslow hospital, We all knew it was bad when Brandon went numb and dropped the phone and started crying. Brian had told Brandon that they tried everything they could to keep her alive but they could no longer try. At that very moment we were all shocked, numb, sad and wondering why would Heavenly Father want to take Her from us, her baby and most of all her husband. We were all really heart broken but it didn't kick in until we made it to the hosital and the nightmare became a reality. We would all give anything to have Azure back with us even if it meant taking care of her for a while, but at least we have her. I know Azure is in a better place and that she is watching over us trying to keep us safe. I can't wait until I get to see her again, see her beautiful big smile, her long hair and her porclin skin. Im happy that we have the memories of Azure, that is better then not having her at all. We love you Azure. You will ALWAYS be missed but NEVER forgotten.

FAMILY

I love my husband, he is the best. On October 5th Brandon took me out to dinner at Licanos. We had a sitter for the kids but we felt that it has been a while since we have been out as a family so, we took the kids. Brandon and I have realized that OUR LOVE is worth fighting for and we don't want to ever take any days together for granted . The night Brandon took the kids and I out he was actually in the Valley meeting with his boss in the day time, and on his way home he stopped and got me a gift. Later that evening we went to ShowLow and ate dinner at Licanos, it was so yummy, after we ate we went to Walmart because it was too late to go see a movie. We got the boys each a pair of pants and some little house hold items. The biggest item that was purchasd that evening was a Wedding Ring for Brandon, he looks nice with a ring on his finger. I love my Family so much and I hate that the short term seperation happened but you can't take but what is done, but in the time we were apart it was totally a learning experience. Heavenly Father has a plan and appearently his plan for us was for us to have some time apart. We have both learned so much and now we can move on with what we have learned and apply it to make our family better, healthier and stronger.

Life was Crazy

Well life has been crazy, hectec, scary, deressing, you name it, it has been. Brandon and I have been together almost 9 years this coming March 3rd, we have been married almost 8 years this December 8th. Brandon and I had alot of problems in our marriage recently and we seperated because of it. Were not perfect and we are both at fault for what happened. We have realized that we do love each other and that this relationship is worth fighting for we were just to blind and scared and hurt to see that and to except it. Brandon and I are talking and working things out because we truly love each other and want a life together as husband and wife. I am so happy and blessed to be back with my other half. Brandon has found Heavenly Father and wants to except him into his life, Brandon has a pretty strong testimony at this point that put me to my knees. Brandon says he has been prayin alot the past few days and he loves the feeling of the spirit and the strenght he gains when he does pray and I am so proud of him. I thought it was so cute and I started balling when he asked me if I would go to church with him. I am so blessed to have Brandon and my 3 wonderful little boys back in my life. I LOVE YOU BABE!!!