Expecting the unexpected

Sometimes I wonder why when bad things happen why do they happen to me? I know im not the only person in this world that something bad happens to but seriously? I wish this storm would go away. It started in 2009 with my hysterectomy and then finding out that i was left with things that should no longer be and that has been a 2 year battle until I had everything fixed on November 9, 2011. I felt fine once Dr. Connolly fixed me. I a few weeks later I noticed that I was more tired then usual and then I would get light headed and dizzy, i would then get nauseated. These little episodes would happen at all hours of the day and night. I found myself getting blurred vision and on occasions i would have no vision when all these symptoms kicked in. I decided to consult with Dr. Bornstein at the Heber/ Overgaard Summit Healthcare Clinic. Thinking it may be my blood pressure or maybe my blood sugar out of wack I decided to go to my parents and check all that. My dad in the past year was diagnosed a diebetic so I used all my parents equiptment. My blood pressure was 120/ 79 and 2 minutes later is was 130/72, still completelly normal. My blood sugar was in the 70's which is also completely normal for fasting as well. I finally went to the doc once my mom convinced me to because the day prior I was driving and all these symptoms came at once like they usually do but my vision was completely gone and when I got my vision back I was in the other lane of traffic and both Jared and Tony screaming because they were so scared. The doc also checked my glucose while fasting which came back at 94, 98 and up being too high and 69 and below being too low, my A1C was 5.1 percent and the doc said anything below 6.0 was good. The doctor had some concerns for me neurologically, all the symptoms were leading symptoms to Epilepsy, Partial complex seizure disorder. I wasnt having convulsions but i am zoning out like you usually do with Partial Complex Seizures. The doctor put in an order for a Cat Scan to rule out and cancer, tumors or any other abnormalities and a referral to see Dr Anderson, head of Neuro at St. Josephs Hospital. He is the best Neurologist in AZ so my sister in law that works at Good Sam Hospital says. While waiting for my cat scan to get approved I have found what does and doesnt trigger these episodes and watching tv and driving cause them so i limit the amount of tv watching and driving I do. It has been 3 weeks since finding out all this info and now I have completely blurred vision and it is now hard to make out pictures. I have tried reading far away and up close and nothing helps. I called the Doctors office on the 7th of February and the nurse had told me that my cat scan was not approved but she would go ahead and get me in with Dr. Anderson and he will do my Cat Scan, MRI and EEG. The past few days have been really good and my vision has been somewhat ok, thats why I have decided to play catch up now. Im great at typing without looking but I cant tell how I am spelling so forgive me if my words are spelt wrong. I am really scared and nervous and really irritated because it is hard to do anything anymore but hopefully I will have some answers really soon. Well thats all for now but I will keep updating as I am able to and have information.

Happy BIG 10th Casey

Today is my First born, oldest, biggest sons 10th Birthday. I am still in Awe that I have a 10 year old for a few reason. 1. I still get asked if I am 17 and I would never have had a baby at 10 right? 2. It doesnt feel like 10 years has gone by, and 3. It really doesnt feel like i am old enough. From the day Casey was born I was in love and I new my life would never be the same. Casey was a good baby from the moment I quit nursing him, I remember having to give him an 8 ounce bottle of infant cereal just to get him to sleep all the way through the night. Casey was an independent baby, once he could get the holding tecnique down he didnt want to be held when he was eating. He played by himself real well, he started walking without us forcing him too and could even talk some sentices at the age at 1. Casey was always a dadddy's boy and it was very rare he ever wanted mommy. Today, Casey is still a daddy's boy who does almost everything bu himself. He cooks, cleans, does some laundry etc. Its nice to have some help now. Casey sure does have an additude on him and im not sure what to think about that, im not use to having a very pre-teen child so I just take it as it goes. There is a lot I can say and remember about the prior years but I would have a novel on my blog if I continued. Im throwing a birthday party for both Casey and Tony at the end of the month so I will have a whole new story and pictures to share then. Happy 10th Casey Thomas Starkes, I love you so so much and I am excited for the years to come with you.

Also, as of February 4th a new little baby entered this world and let me tell ya, he is a beautiful baby, I love being an auntie and I cant wait to meet him.

Surgery Day

Ever since Tony was hit by a truck we started noticing little things like the sleep apnea, loud snoring, restless sleeping, bloody noses ( on a daily basis) slurred speech etc. We all thought that these symptoms were just side affects from being druged on his head for 48 feet. So we when we moved back to Arizona I took Tony to the doctor for a check up and Dr. Coss had said that the symptoms weren't from his accident but because he had gross, large tonsils that were infected. This was in August that Tony had been seen by Dr. Coss, he referred Tony to Dr. Cox the Ear Nose and throat specialist but they couldn't see Tony until November 22nd, REALLY??? That was 3 and a half months away. On November 22nd we went to the ENT, the same guys who put 3 sets of tubes and took out Casey's Tonsils and took out Jared's Tonsils so I knew the doc and trusted him. When he looked in Tony's throat he said,'' Oh ya, these babies need to come out.'' Of course they will still large, gross and STILL infected. We set the date for surgery for Monday February 6th at 6:30 check in time and 7:30 surgery time. I knew Tony was gonna be alright be it was the simple fact that he had already been through so much in the past year. Tony came out of surgery kicking and screaming like I knew he would and I just curled up next to him in the bed and tried my hardest to soothe him. Thank Heavens Brandon was with me because it killed me once again to see Tony in that kind of Pain. It is now Thursday and unlike Casey and Jared ( eating solid food right after surgery) Tony is still in a ton of pain and constantly still running a fever, all he can eat is ice cream, Popsicles and soft foods. Anthony seems to be at his highest pain level in the middle of the night and the doc says that's because he has time to left everything in his mouth dry out so needless to say Tony and I do not get a ton of sleep at night. Although everyday is a little bit better the the day before, I cant wait until Tony is his little ole' self again


Not Sure what to think of this


Rock On!!!


Going into Surgery, Peace Out!!!




Daddy Trying to soothe his boy


Trying to get Tony to do his breathing treatment




The Yummy Tonsils


Going home

Happy Birthday Anthony

Febuary 2nd Anthony turned 4 years old. I cant believe my baby is already 4. As everyone already knows, Tony is my last baby. I will never have a child where i can witness their first smile, first tooth, first roll over, first crawl, first laugh, first words, first steps or a first birthday. It makes me sad to know I will never be able to witness my babies first baby things but I now get to look forward to the " first " things they do as big boys and even when they become men. Even though I am done witnessing there the first as little kids i know that time moves on. We didn't do anything special for Tony's Birthday because Brandon works late but we are going to have a Birthday party at the end of the month so i will post more then. Happy 4th Birthday my big boy. Mommy loves you tons!!!!!

Time to play catch up...

I have really been bad at blogging this past year, mainly because I only have internet on my phone and im not about to blog with a touch screen.

November: Sort of busy month for us I finally went to the doctor about all the problems i was having with my previous hysterectomy. Dr Connelly is a life saver, he removed the left ovary that was giving me grief on Novermber 9th, 2011. The doc said that my left ovary was on my right side with my right overy and all my organs were bunched together like they shouldnt be so not only did he take out what needed to be taken out he fixed and tacked up what needed to be fixed and tacked up. Brandon was gone working in Peach Springs from October 17th to end of December and came home every few weeks so I had to do everything by myself. Novermber 10th was Jareds 7th and Brandons 27th birthday. Nothing to exciting happened and since I just had surgery we only had a few friends over to celebrate. Thanksgiving was different for us, we went to Aaron and Michelles house and had mexican food for dinner and watched a movie, went home and went to bed. We went to the valley for Thanksgiving and celebrated with the Starkes on Sunday the 27th. It was nice, with Brandon and I being in Texas for 2010 Thanksgiving it was nice to be home. What else happened in November? Oh ya... I got a Tattoo done by Brandon Howard and so did Brandon... Thanks Howard :)

December: This month was not a good month. We were 2 month behind on our expedition payment due to our horrible move to AZ, we had to spend our 2 months of money for bills on getting home. I talked to our lender in Texas and he said as long we had the 2 month caught up by December 15 he wouldnt repo our vehicle... Ha, December 1st at 8:48 pm someone showed up to take our vehicle away. I was beyond pissed at this point for 2 reasons. 1. He was supposed to give us until the 15th. 2. We were sending the money out on the 2nd. Bill with Auto Mart told us that we had to pay the remainder of the loan in full in order to get our vehicle back which was 2700. With Christmas around the corner that wasnt gonna happen so we were left vehicle-less. Christmas was fun. We went to my brothers house on Christmas Eve and my Uncle Denny's house and opened presents. I was nice seeing family we havent seen in a while. On Christmas Day we went to Mike and Brandi's house for dinner and a gift exchange, it was nice. It seemed liked all the Starkes family were there ( grandma, grandpa, aunts, cousin, siblings etc.) Brian and Ginger weren't able to make it to the Valley so Christmas didnt feel complete. New Years eve we went to Mike Barr's house and had some yummy food, drinks, music and good friends. We spent the remainder of the night at home watching a movie with the boys. It was nice. Also, I almost forgot to mention that Brandon and I celebrated our 10th wedding anniversary. Brandon was working in Peach Springs so we celebrated miles apart, we still have yet to do something which will be coming soon.

Januaray: We did not do anything this month at all. Brandon is done working in Peach springs but we have some work lined up in Payson and Flagstaff.... YAY!!! So we have been without a car since December 1st and my parents have driving me and the kids all over the dang place so much to my surprise they bought us a 1999 Ford Explorer Eddie Bouer addition ( yep, they finally got tired of driving me all over the place). Its not free, we are paying them back for it which is totally fine, i wouldnt want it any other way. Later this month Brandon, the boys and I took a little trip to Payson and met with Dan, the owner of the house Brandon is building in Payson. When we were done we went to Flagstaff to meet with the Arends, whose house were building in Flagstaff. It was nice to have some more work lined up when we headed home. We also stopped at Salsa Brava ( the best Mexican food in Arizona. This place was even on Diners, Drive ins and Dives)Well That pretty much takes care of a few months. I know I need to update as the events are current but I am the master at procrastination.